AN INNOCENT RAMBLE!

If I were to calculate all the minutes spent talking in a day I would find maybe a few hours wasted.Filled with the information brought in from the books and wisdom of many centuries it is easy to think how futile it is to speak or more often to babble.Yet, it is so difficult to ensure a state of calm within and even more without.There are many instances one comes across when one is forced to let go off the calm and quiet within.What one sees is a letting out of steam which is a by product of the disquiet one has nurtured when at some point formerly a serene moment had been disrupted by an outward act and the resulting disruption had not been withheld.I don't say, controlled, because it seems too big a word with which to restrain our idiosyncrasies, 'withhold' seems more appropriate since it allows scope for improvement, both of the idiosyncrasies and the manner of withholding! 

One such instance commonly crops up when there is a visitation pending from an imminent guest(s).No appointments taken, no guest list announced and no conversation topic decided.It is considered a courtesy visit and the hospitality is expected to be 'good'.Its not a 'tea and biscuits' thing.It maybe a dreaded visit from a nearly forgotten (every time) aunt, or a 'dropped in just like that' neighbor. Nevertheless, it ensures that every single mantra of meditation walks out the door when the sudden guest walks in.If I could seek one reason why all this is called hospitality it would probably be because one has to remain vigilante as the resident of a hospital in whose hands the health and lives of a few dozen folks rest.Though the vigilante part may not be concerning the life of the guest, it withdraws enough energy from our calm self to erode the peaceable self that we try to rebuild every time the inner calm is sought to be destroyed.The ancient scriptures preached and yogis practiced silence by way of  healing the disruption caused to the serene moment mentioned before. Its the serene moment that had come from within  and the restlessness caused while thinking of the disruptions it would have to endure, that led to the actual disruption, more than perhaps the other causes which triggered the disruption.Silence may not be a great mantra at all times especially given the fact that letting go off harsh feelings by saying it out loud reduces stress, it would be better to have the knowledge of  using once silence.Using it to see the calm within, to withhold the desire to remain calm within and to let go off enough steam, in order to study, how the 'calmness' can be enlarged.Removing the disquiet or the disruption is only half the battle won, trying to retain the serene moment a little longer each time brings in the silence and the desire to meditate.

I had read somewhere (I think in a reader's digest edition) that being a mere spectator of nature's grandeur is also worship.I think, sometimes being a merely vigilant listener is also meditation.